THIS JOURNAL WAS DESIGNED BY KENSHINBEBOP!!! Mysterious white girls thoughts Guera whatchu wanna know about me? my time my people

errrrrr [21 Aug 2001|12:42am] Life sucks......err i want to fight right now or snap or do something.....things get soo fucked up at home and people wonder why I act like this......i feel like the mother always take care of everyone espically my mom she actslike a lil kid......Damnit , fuck, bitch, asshole.....ok I had to get it outta me but damn this was a good day I had went on a run and i come home go on-line and then things get fucked up!!! I just hope when I have kids that I am a good parent..... I hate second hand smoke teh world needs to stop somkin in drinkin cause i don't need all teh second hand smoke i am gettin from the world and i ahte seein alcholics......and i hate pullution and i feel bad from animals who are mistreadted, tehre is so much wrong to this world ok i am mumbling agian let me stop.....aww that guy i said who wanted to marry me.....he sadi he woudn't do anything with me until we marry cause he owudl feel wrong cause we live so far apart and we never see each that he would feel like he using ain't that soo cute. about every other guy i know would never do that i usally gotta snap at them for comin up to close and here this guy is tellin me all this awww......i thikn i needed to hear that..ok anway i am tired of typin and my bad there is so much bad spellin i didn't do spell check but who is gonan care..and don't make too serius in here i like to vent and mummbel rememeber....damn i wish i knew how to spell better.

hola [18 Aug 2001|01:41am] I haven't talk to my man for awhile and i kinda miss him and i kinda don't. LoL i know i got problems!!Anyway i just got home from seein rat race.....that a pretty funny movie. Damnit this weather sucks it's too cold and not enough sun i am gonna lose my tan soon and turn white agian........NO!!!!! These days i just been to my self really i haven't talked to friends as much as i do when the school year goes on but i guess it ok cause i never am alone during teh school year this is really my only time. But school os gonna start soon and i don't want to cause i only got 3 years left of high school and in my mind when high school done i gotta grow up and after high school i go straight to college and after college i gotta get a masters in whatever i major in and i want to get a couple of degrees in diffrent majors, and after i graduate through all my years of school i gotta have a job and i feel like i should be married soon then ad get some kids and a house, and then i am liek whoa that sounds liek only 10-15 years only. What happens after all that i just grow old and die? Does life stop after you hit 35 then what? Errrr and marraige scares me i don't see any really healthy marragies anymore and i am scared not to find the right guy who teh hell is that. LoL i don;t even know why the fuck i am thinkin this anyway right now i guess i am just bored lol. And too think i know a guy who is 17 and is wating for marragie and knows who is wife is gonna be. i think i wanna see teh world before even think about it. I wanna tarvel and i wanna do darin things and i dunno and this journal sucks so don't read this i am just mumbling about whatever pops in my head at this very very moment........lalalal.

been so long [05 Aug 2001|11:52pm] Danger! Danger!!!!! Get off the flo the.....Been so longgggg since I been onnnnnnnn so peace so peace......lol I like that song........ So get this......this one guy i am talkin to tells me he know i am the 1 for him that i am so special and banging and hot .....etc. that he knows he wants to be with me and marry me and he is scared cause he is gonna lose me and that it hurts him that he doesn't get to see me and hug me and hold me and tell me he loves me.........lol OK and then work over and camp so now all i do is run swim tan and chill wit friends and movies......today i went to navy pier and my friends dad work BBQ.....he called me his niece so i ran around callin him uncle........and at navy pier i got bored on the Ferris wheel so i started singin Chicago lol and the people just started looking at me all crazy smiled and laughed...and I am happy now me and Charlie and Stan are friends again.....well I am tired of typing I will say more later if that is anytime soon.......i just wanna add I love Albert yes I do I love Albert yes I do....and hi Megan and sidonie if you two ever read this!!!!!

...... [21 Jul 2001|01:25pm] I am still with the same guy and I still like him soo much. We have been going out for 3 weeks, and I love every minute we spend together. He treats so good with respect and he a lil freaky lol, but he is so sweet and I like him so much. And I like it when he gets jealous cause that shows he cares and that he worries and all. OK so anyway my work is over in a week, my track camp is over in a week and a few days, but now I gotta start basketball camp. It's like where has my summer gone, it's been one thing to another to another and another. I haven't been keeping too good it touch with people and I am sorry (Albert). I am kinda scared when camp is over cause then what will happen to us......and this is the first guy in a long time that I truly worry about how things will be, most guys I don't care it was like ho so what but this guy is so different. I dunno. I got a track meet Monday and I hope I do good. I hope all the work I ahem done shows off. And at work it is cute when I said bye to all the boys cause the shorties all gave me hugs and some boys said bye to me I hardly know and they were like ," I like you Ms. Sandra" and they gave me a kiss and ran away giggling. LoL I am gonna miss eh shorties. Well, I'll holler more in here later.

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